Transformation....

Is something we all go through, i have been thinking about my own lately and some questions pop up immediately, have i become too cold? emotionless? or is this a phase? Over the years i have had a lot of experiences, some extremely sad some happy and some bitter-sweet, these have moulded me into who i am today and who i am is a reflection of what i have seen and been through in life, but is there a need for change? i think so, sometimes experiences turn us into people we really are not, we seek a comfort zone and having found that we do not see the need to move out of it no matter how stagnant it has become, i need to move out of mine and i think i will! Also another thought that perplexes the mind is the faces that have come into my life, friends,girl-friends, acquaintances alike, have i made an impression on their lives? i don't know because i never asked, but i hope in some way i have brought some positivity into their daily lives, take my lady friend for example a very talented girl, but holding herself back? i hope in someway i have encouraged her to let loose and take on the world,naturally gifted people are few and far between,,,, Also there was another reason i decided to call this post "Transformation" Today was the transfer deadline, it was crazy, it was hectic and i am proud to say we worked very very hard now the squad looks somewhat like the squad in the adams,viera era with the right mix of youth and experience, New Signings: Park: Captain of the Korean National team, plenty of experience Mertesacker: 75 caps for Germany, Captain of Werder Santos:22 Caps for Brazil Yossi: Captain of the Israeli national team Arteta: Automatically becomes with the post premiership experience in the team, Fantastic, a perfect foil for wilshere,ramsey,alexode,miyaichi to learn from and grow Total Spending: 51.4 million pounds A reasonable amount spent on transfers, love it!!

A strange feeling....

I cannot explain what has come over me, beyond words, but thesedays everything has been quiet, there is a strange calmness in the air, i wonder what it is? i am not saying i do not like it, in fact its quite the opposite, i am in my element and this has not happened in a long long time, there is a lot of optimism in the air for some odd reason, strange.... cannot think of a better word..
So back to happenings in and around me, aside from the strange calmness which has come over me, things are moving along as they should, on a personal front, a couple of really interesting conversations,
1. me: so everything ok?
her: i don't know, not sure about anything anymore,,,,
me:are you happy?
her:i guess so....
me:time for kids?or rather a kid?
her:no decided to wait, need time to adjust, too many rules....
me:so you are not happy then
her: Silence
her: I miss you
me: Silence
2.me: Hey long time, how are you
her(not the same as no.1): good and you, how are you are your girl?
me:which girl?
her:(no.1)
me: Oh that ended a year ago, she is married now
her:Sorry baby
me: Its ok,i am fine
her:I miss you
me: I miss you too
her:Sorry to be off the radar for such a long time
me:no worries, figured you were busy with your life
her:my feelings were overwhelming, did not know what to do with them,,,,not an excuse,,,,
me:no worries, my feelings for you have not changed,,,,somethings never do
her:Yes, somethings never change


Sums up my personal life i guess,
also on a more passionate note, i was harsh on arsene and i think it was more an emotional thing, i am passionate about the club and arsene is the face of the club, but after thinking long and hard i have come to the conclusion that Arsene is still the right man for the job,,,,
Come on you gunners!!

8-2....

That was the scorline, when we played united today,

Wenger has to go.... period.

I am frustrated,this is going to be a terrible week, i don't know what excuses he will come up with now, but this is terrible just terrible, i am thinking avoiding relegation this year.

Wenger, gaziwhateverthefuckdis and whoever else runs this football club need to go, we need a complete overhaul, players and management alike!