I felt the need to write again, i know i neglect the blog, but it comes handy when i do feel the urge to scribble.I sometimes wonder what life has become and how different it could have been, i look around myself and i see people i know, friends and family and they have their own families, they are settled in life and i guess in a way leading a normal life. Which leads me to question myself, why am i not one of them? why have i always shied away from leading a life which meant having a family, having kids etc. ? instead here i am, alone, sometimes the loneliness gets to me and today i guess is one of those days....
But would i ever be comfortable in a life like that, that is the question i ask myself, over and over again and the answer is a resounding NO, my genetic makeup seems to be different, i like my independence, i like to be free, i hate being tied down, its just not me, maybe just maybe i can find a companion in life who thinks the way i do, who enjoys the same things i do and loves her independence just as i do mine, so far the search has been unsuccessful but i can always hope....
I feel disgusted these days, because of the world we live in, there is so much violence, poverty, hunger and death all around us, why is it that we as humans cannot learn to co-exist with each other, why do we want more, enough is never enough, there is always a hunger for more, the rich get richer, the poor get poorer, the religious zealots use religion as a weapon, there is no place for spirituality anymore, everything seems to be fake, no one cares about the starving hungry child and if we do care its because our religion says so or maybe we think we have done something good, we feel the satisfaction, there are very few selfless people left in this world....
I propose a society free of money, religion, poverty, where there is plenty for all to eat, where disputes are settled by diplomacy and talk, instead of killing and death. The rule of the jungle does not apply anymore, i know its just a Utopian dream but maybe just maybe we will have such a world one day, devoid of hate, where everyone loves the other and we all co-exist in peace....
Anyway i think i have written enough, maybe will post again soon, it did feel good to write a few lines!
