The Weekend....

Was an interesting one, i went to toronto to meet an old friend, well she is much more than a friend to be honest and i for one felt the need to apologize for the way i behaved when i last saw her which was more than 2 years ago.... we have known each other for more than a decade and always kept in touch but the last time we met i think i was a dick,,,, sometimes i have the tendency to be one! she brushed off the apology as if nothing had happened and she was fine, surprised me a little but then i thought i must have over reacted, which was great to be honest because i have been feeling guilty for the longest time, because i honestly thought i had hurt her, and believe me it was not intentional, i have always had feelings for her and still do, those will never go away, she is someone very special but i was in a serious relationship 2 years ago and well she was.... and always has been taken.... but later on in a conversation she mentioned she is afraid of being attached, and it was the way she said it, i relaized that i had indeed hurt her feelings,,,, i felt lousy!
Also the woman i saw was a pale shadow of herself, she seemed shy,demure, very fragile, even a little jaded and it troubled me to see her in that state, i wish, hope and pray that she gets herself back to the woman of old, she gets her self confidence back, her feistiness back,,,, and like i told her i am here if she ever needs any support emotionally, its the least i can do!
Sometimes life has strange twists and turns and you do not really know how to comprehend some of these, i really am clueless!