Tired....

Of seeing us lose again, its was 4-3 today at Blackburn, do i feel frustrated, or angry? i don't know anymore, its more of a disappointing sadness that i feel, feel sorry for the club, the manager,,,, maybe they will turn it around! lets hope anyway,,,,

On another note, i have been chatting with my ex quite a bit these days and i guess things are not as rosy as she thought it would be after marriage,there was a lot of bitterness in me because i was really hurt, as time passed the bitterness passed as well, but yesterday when i spoke to her, all i could do was feel sad and sorry for her? it was really sad, i heard a person who was broken, depressed and resigned to leading a life which had no happiness, she thinks its karma for hurting me, i asked her to try communication, maybe that will help and they will be able to resolve their marital issues!

As for me, i am a traveller, on the journey of life, still looking for the right companion,,,, it seems like a long road ahead and i for one would love to have someone to share it with!

Lets say i am a dick...

Is that a presumption or is that reality, it is reality, i am a superficial dick,as much as i think i do not want to be one i end up being one, but then aren't we all?
A simple story to prove my point, i was talking to my friend a few months back and i thought something, lets say for argument sake a car, looked good, but then i started talking about the deficiencies, the seats are not right, the colour is not good, so what looked to be good car suddenly looked like, "oh well whatever", ultimately its because of how superficial i was and i want to change that, trust me, i have been trying hard but it does not seem to be working too well, i get frustrated and in my head i am constantly analyzing, maybe i need to figure out a way? someway that i can overlook the obvious and look at the nicer picture, maybe!, i am selfish and i want to figure out a way to change that! i know we all are, but some of us more than others and the more i try to improve myself the better it is for me and for my future....

On to more important things, we went to Dortmund today and came back 1-1
In the end a decent result, considering we were playing the Bundesliga champions, but we could have won it, it was a wonder strike that put them level( a once in a lifetime goal) but to be fair i think they deserved a point, but goetze is special, there is no doubt about it, but here is the kicker and mark my words, we have someone in the wings who is as well, RYO MIYAICHI, he is the future and is going to be one of the greatest footballers Asia has produced if not the greatest, and i for one expect him to be the next big superstar! in Red and White of course!!, so long!

The weekend....

Was nice, and relaxing :-), well its not over yet but for the most part it was good,
Friday was Onam, not that a lot of people know what it is, its a festival all malayalees celebrate, no matter where you are in the world, nothing religious, more cultural, a harvest festival actually, which has become tradition more than anything else,
So i decided to get drunk, i was planning to go out with my good friend anyway and then i decided, oh well time to let loose and drink, we were at the brew pub till 1 am, then we headed over to the goat to find that it was closed and then we ended up at the new Scottish restaurant/bar which has opened up, there till 2:30 and then she came home and we talked/danced till 4, it was good.Its funny how someone so very sober wants to dance everytime we drink,lol,there is a salsa party next week and i think i will take her to that, we get along great and its good to have a friend who understands my perspective and someone who is a very close confidant!
So i woke up with a hangover:-), but to see us win 1-0, it was laboured and it was a lucky goal, but i am positive we will improve as the season wears on!

Anyway, that was it, plan to relax some more today!