A dreary hello....

i am single now,been for a little while.
A little over three years spent, wasted? i think about it from time to time,sometimes it seems they were, sometimes i think not, afterall there have to be a few good memories? are there? hmmm right now i cannot recall,if there were they seem to be lost in the mist.
Either ways,fact of the matter is,i am single and another chapter in life stands closed.There is a lot of bitterness in me towards the girl and sometimes i wish she would feel the pain that i felt,,maybe even worse,but then thats wishful thinking, life moves on and in a few weeks, i will not even care for that is the circle of life,i am sure i will find someone much better:-), infact on the bright side i have been having a good time, usually after breaking up or coming out from a long term relationship there is a phase of depression, but seems like i am over it already, was depressed maybe a week, but then i started living my life and i am enjoying every moment, met some amazing people already, visited 2 new places and its like a burden has been lited,the air is crisper....
Interesting though that when u look at an old relationship in perspective, u see a lot of things which u could not before, everything seemed perfect when i was in the relationship but now after looking back at it,wow,seems like i was blind to be with the person i was with, she was manipulative,vindictive,selfish,,,, although in the relationship i was made to look like the selfish one, i even believed i was,lol.
Here we have a liar who tells me something,tells her friends something else,tells her family something else,,,, in an effort to look good?
Anwyay these things are beyond my comprehension and from what i have written, i guess it is quite clear that the bitterness still exists,its fading, i would have written something a lot harsher a couple of weeks ago but like i said, in a few more weeks i will not even care.
So what would my ideal woman be like? what would be her key qualities?
Kindness,Compassion,someone who understands love,someone who is selfless and above all someone who is not a hypocrite and does not lie!
Wow, some strong words in the post,,,, but then thats the truth and i do believe in karma, so in a way i think i deserved what happened to me(somethings better left unsaid),so i guess what i wrote above applies to me as well, but then the way i look at it, if the relationship was working well, then there should not have been a reason for frustration:-)

Either ways, my writing seems to be going in circles, so i am going to end this post with a quote from GB Shaw
"The fact that a believer is happier than a skeptic is no more to the point than the fact that a drunken man is happier than a sober one."

hello hello

Hello, has it been a year? hmm i am surprised i am blogging again in 2010, customarily i blog once or twice a year except for when it started out, it was a fad then now it seems more of a redundancy, anyway, not much to update really.
Life motors on, lonliness creeps in,slowly eating away at me,,,, wow that sounded dramatic, well actually i am really busy thesedays so its creeping in real slow like a ford model T competing in an indy 500.
The EPL season starts this weekend, i am excited, in Team News:
Chamakh in: Free Transfer( he looks like the solid front man we have been lacking)
Eduardo out:I think with chamakh's arrival edu's playing time would have been reduced anyway so its kinda nice that he was allowed to leave when a good offer came in
K********** in( dunno how to pronounce or spell it), have not seen much of him so cannot comment, but any defender is a welcome addition,
Also Cesc decided to stay- most say its probably only for a year but let's see what the season unfolds, if we win the league or even CL i am sure he will stay for the length of his contract)
In other news Xavi is a ********* , who likes to blab,pity barcelona are not going to
be la liga champs for a while,what with mourinho at the helm at Real,

Anyway, am moving this weekend, so thats worth looking forward to,imagine how dull and un-inspiring your life is when u look forward to moving?

EOS

End of the Season!
We finished 3rd, not a bad achievement considering many expected us to be out of a reckoning for a CL spot this year, but all things said and done this team did alright, we battled through injuries and still managed to come 3rd. But for a gooner 3rd is not enough and we did have a lot issues this year especially defensively and i hope Le Boss corrects them. We need a CB, a good defenisve midfielder and a good goalie. With chamakh we do get another striker added to the mix which is always good, we scored a lot of goals this season and we conceded a lot too!, hopefully next season will be better, good things are just around corner and i hope this young side lifts the championship next year.
Also there are a lot of fellow gooners out there who believe Le Boss is not the right man for the job, i am not one of them, i still think Arsene is Arsenal and he has built this team and he knows what he needs to sort out defensively, keep in mind this will be first year in a long time that he will have a reasonable amount of money to spend!
Also congrats to Chelsea for winning the league this year!